Made Brilliant. Decided Devious.
"Without fear there would be no temptation. Without temptation there would be no risk.
Without risks there would be no love.
Breathe deep and jump because something might just catch you as brilliant."
-Brianna Gallowe
today.
Today, no.
Nope, just no.
No longer Beautiful
I was beautiful once. The type of mysterious beautiful that people wonder what she is all about. The type everyone wanted to be with but couldn’t.
But I gave it away so easily because I believed, I believed I could love them, even for all their faults, I believed in human beings; so I believed the lie society wrote in my fairy tales.
My innocence was taken. I no longer feel beautiful I no longer wear make-up, I no longer dress up or look to be beautiful.
I no longer am beautiful; I am as ugly as society. And society is as ugly as it gets.
Poor me, I believed.
why….
why, why, why are you so happy.
why, why do you hae everything we were supposed to have
why, did I give up that life
it hurts me so.
why?
we dream of being happy, but what is happiness?
we sing of memories, but how many can we have?
dreams just dont come true….
Fuck the world.
Its like five minutes your happy and the next fivenive got more flaws than a fake Gucci bag.
When will I need enough?
When will it just be enough?
When will I be good enough?
No on believes me but I’m going to get my wedding dress alterations done this weekend… I hope it doesn’t cost me an arm and a leg
My soul
Burning. feeling.
Breathing. existing.
Hoping. thinking.
Teething. growing.
Tearing. remembering.
Weight-Loss Count Down
Start: 156
Today: 151.7
its been slow but I haven’t been as dedicated. But almost 6 pounds is a great start. School and my internship start next week. We will see how I fair.
Welcome to society where you will be judged by what you wear, what you have and who you know. We expect you to be materialistic step over and on anyone who will get in your way. Rules state you must look and act like the highest of all expectations. But please bear in mind you will be labeled and your label defines you as a person. Your status is everything. But Enjoy your stay.
he got engaged i think it hurts
